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Bertahun berlalu, Meninggalkan kesan beribu, Tercuit hati melihat coretan dulu, Celoteh bujang mentafsir ilmu. ===== Salam perkenalan buat sahabatku yang masih utuh menulis dan mengarang isi hati. Naskah pemula ini sekadar untuk menyambung pelajaran dari ilmu terdahulu. Bila diteliti, tidak banyak yang mungkin berubah dari coretan bujang dahulu. Pokoknya masih sama, cuma dahannya sahaja yang makin bercabang-cabang. Soalan yang diajukan dalam “ A Mystery ” dahulu sudah ditemukan jawapannya di usia harini. Namun, masih tidak dapat ku hurai dan fahami secara mendalam, hanya sekadar bermain-main di gigi air. Entah sempat di hayat ini atau tidak, hanya masa dan ujianlah yang menjadi gurunya. Bahasa ibunda akan ku jadikan pintu untuk bangsal tulisan akan datang. Semoga akhirnya dapatlah ku huraikan dapatan pengalaman dengan lebih jelas buat bacaan penutur serumpunku; dan buat diriku di usia emas. ===== Bangkitlah jiwaku, Rukunkan pandangan supaya jitu, Resah bukan perkara baharu, Renunglah g...

 It's not always at fault. The changes, it did not just happen, Something keeps disturbing it, Forcing its way over the mind, Intrude on one's soul, Debating one's beliefs. The firmness then crumbles, Slowly, painfully, over and over, Till it falls, along the pride's wall, Lowered, down to the ground, Then the question begins in the heart, What will it be? Should it be? What choice could it be? Soon, when bad turn worse, When noises tried to emerge, Close the eyes, shut the ears, Strengthen the heart, Never once give up, Reach out to those who knew. Hold tight to them, Wake up and reclaim your time, Heal will come to those who want it, Push and keep moving, Build it again, one at a time, The wall of stronger defense, A pride to becoming better human! Written by: fzikuz | 21 January 2022

Life may have been harsh, Its seem far and hard, The path that I’ve chosen, Had taken the past I owned, As more steps taken, So does the memories gone, It is a struggle, And it is for the treasure, The unknown, yet will be found, And I am very confident, This path of mine is never wrong, So does the own you have chosen, We have to be patient, A beautiful pearl will be born, And it just one in millions, So just hold on, And become the most sparkling pearl! Written by fzikuz Tuesday, July 07, 2015 The Pearl : The New Phase!

True love, What it takes to have one? Giving everything you got, Or just wait till the time comes? They said, If they’re happy, so do you, And they also said, Your sacrifices will make love for you. So then I obeyed, Hope true love will be mine, Time passes each season, And I notice a part still missing. Emptiness and loneliness, Its stop by when the time freeze, There’s a thing they haven’t told, Love yourself first is a must done. Credit to The Paper Wall

I heard a call, a shout to be exact. There're calling my name and waving to me. I heard they said, "Come back! The time has come! You must wake up now or it will be no coming back!" What are they talking about? Come back to where? The headache keep coming recently, and I think something is struggling inside my mind, something that has long buried; the memories, the past, the old time. How long is it already? I seems to forget so many things bout my past. Being passive, out of curiosity,  and being hold by a strong oppression really had change me in many way. Feeling restless and exhausted had robed me for too long. Maybe its time to put an end to all these trouble. I shall find a way back, I must once again be able to walk the road of light! Source: T he Paper Wall

Sometime patient alone won't work. Trust me! I know a lot bout being patient. This is so hard to understand by the naive thinking of me of course. I thought I got it all and I do make some notes somewhere to remind me. Guess what, I forget almost all of it already. Lucky me right? "What is being human really mean?" Have you answered this questions? Or its never crossed your mind before? This one question means a lot to me. It is the beginning of pursuing something that you'll never know of its important someday. The hunger keep growing, the more you found the less you understand. Question, that lead to more questions, being deceived by your ideas and ideology, everything goes so wrong, and its just make you feel so lost and tired. "What had gone missing?"

One fine day.. Amad: Dad, what is love? Dad: Love? Hurm, love is.. wait, wait. are you in love?! who's the girl that make my boy a grown man now? Come on, tell me! tell me! Amad: Dad please! I'm just curious okay. Nothing more, nothing less. Dad: Haha, okay, that is normal. After all, only people who just suddenly fall in love would understand that curious you have. Amad: Can you  just answer the question Dad? Dad: Come on, I'm just starting to have some fun now. Oh, now I see someone face turn red! (laughing) Amad: Can you stop teasing me Dad? That's not funny okay. Dad: Haha, finally my son is in love! So I guess "Girl is trouble" have caught you right on your face! Amad: Good try Dad, good try. Ahaha.. Dad: Well, love is everything and anything. It's up to you, truly define by the way you see it. Amad: Really? Then how you define it Dad? Dad: It is a life, a blessing, and a cure for restless mind and soul. Amad: That's all? Dad: For ...

How will you choose? I never wish to live in this mess, I just hope for a better life, I didn’t mean to be disgrace, I just want a truth out of this madness. Will you stop with the argument? It does make me feel sick, I know you’re both making some points, But sadly it causes me more confuses. Written by fzikuz Wednesday, August 01, 2012 p/s: will you see what had I saw?

See it thoroughly, What you keep in believing, Will you found the verity? Or better to ignore it? Twisted fantasy and reality, A sick heart with poison meds, Mind tricks by magical sticks, Will it make you another V? Move in shadow and live alone, How will verity be found? Written by fzikuz Wednesday, July 18, 2012 *Happy fasting month (Ramadan 1433H) to fellow Muslim Duck or Rabbit?

How should I express my feeling bout this video? It is very heart touching, so sad that it happen to be that way. We are special, friends, no matter in what way people judge you, you are who you are. You are not the projection of the creepy ideas they had about you. As I wrote before, If you ever need someone, you can count on me. I will be happy to have you as a friend. Suicide (Please Don't ! )

Who know what will you be tomorrow, When you too unsure what happen in next hours, Why would you listen to the others, While you can be beyond expectations, Don't you know what they afraid of ? Seeing you move till the final, Far ahead of the 'comfort' zone. Written by Nik Ahmad Fariq B Nik Ibrahim Sunday, May 13, 2012 Do Better!

Deep into the forest of life, The Untold Beyond the reach of mankind, I found a footstep, I feel a heart’s essence, I trailed the old shattered branches, Thorns and bushes become companion, Moment later I saw a figure, Trap in the middle of river’s stream, Shining brightly and patiently waiting. Written by Nik Ahmad Fariq B Nik Ibrahim Monday, April 02, 2012

Cliché, right?   What else can you wrote about? It has been covered, all of it, about your life, things you regretted, things you adored, love stories you keep fantasizing, the spice and the ugly of life, the beauty and the sweet memories, and the giving, the receiving, and the forgiving, it’s all out there and trust me, we read its countless of times, but why we keep looking for another piece of the same writing? Pathetic, aren’t we? Curiously, fzikuz

The Rhythm of Silent I came here with smile and laugh, And I make friends across ages, All I wanted is to be with everyone, They're my joy in everyday life. How I believe to be happy can surpasses the tense, Till later it becomes too big to conquer, Then I struggle to suppress it harder, And today, I found the end for a Joker. I am tired and exhausted, I give up the joke; fade up with the joy, At the end my talk is a poison, For a group of people who love to live in barrier. And that's how the talkative had turned silent. Written by Nik Ahmad Fariq B Nik Ibrahim Friday, February 24, 2012

How weird life is, isn't it? From day first we were born in this beautiful world, there are just to much need to be learned, understand, and taught. From the first proud step till the last meaningful step, we encounter many different things, we make mistakes, we do stupid things, we enjoy the youth-ages, we found love, we build a family, then we learn to be in joy and pain. Can you see how all of this had successfully created the way you're doing right now? Take a moment, and look back to what have you had in your life. If you being asked, "What is the most precious in your life?" What will be your answer? Sincerely, fzikuz. p/s: my answer would be 'Time'. Now I understand how short 24 hours can be.. ^^

I had a dream one night. I met a man whom I can’t really saw his face or recognized how he looks like. I just knew that’s a man and I absolutely sure he is. I recall that we’re having chats, and it’s a fun one, under a very big, green and shady tree in the middle of green field, out of nowhere. I don’t know what were we talking about in particular, but I remember a question he asked me that time. A Mystery “With the world full of knowledge, which one you think the first one need to be learned?” On the wooden swing, under the shadow of the tree, he suddenly vanished and leaving me alone, still thinking of the right answer for the friendly Mister. Things change, the scenery is fading and miraculously I am awake from my dream with my mind still working with the question, and curiously want to know what would be the answer?

I question myself one day, what is peace? Having everything? Or controlling everything? I believe that peace is love. Love that can be felt in every heart, have no boundaries, have no forces, and it naturally born with us. It makes you feel calm with the way it cease your problems away, the way it lift you up when you fall, the way it makes you cry and release your pain, and the most important is the way it gives you hopes to hang on and to climb for the best of life. So, do you really need money for that? Nope, all you need is got back your humanity, because it’s the beginning of love from the giver that need no reply. I’m a seeker of love, Have no boundaries and not blind, Giving no burden but hopes, Not for suicide, but for a peace of life. Soothing music is a way to understand what love is. Written by fzikuz

You must believe in the way you see 'it' A small step to begin with, Decision to leave uncertainty, Next step to create a fantasy, Collecting dreams yet as reality, Do as wishes of a starveling, Build the house even with a brick, Put a soul in every dreams, Make a fantasy become a reality, Let times become an enemy. Written by Nik Ahmad Fariq B Nik Ibrahim Friday, January 06, 2012

‘I have live long enough, but why can I control my anger as the way it should be?’ I didn’t look at him while throwing the question; instead I keep staring as far as my sight can reach out of the blue sea. Though this is the part that I hate most to talk about, but Amad still patiently seated, smiling at my very question. ‘You don’t really need the answer’ he said and I said nothing. It is time to take a vacation ‘Two fresh coconut juice, sir, and do you want anything else?’ ‘No thanks’ I said. Then I saw the waitress moving to a table which just two rows from me, asking politely the customers whom just arrived, waiting for their orders. ‘Hey, what’s in your mind?’ Amad started the conversation after an awkward moment of silent. ‘I don’t know, it hard for me to put it in word”. I exhale hardly like a person who just finished doing some heavy work. The I continued, ‘I love someone, and that someone really is important to me which that someone can even make me cry in my night,...